Is The Competitive Winemaker A Former Engineering Student?

Life Jul 26, 2020

Today I'm writing again in a state of total confusion. It must be a season for wrong ways home. Lonely days turn to lonely nights, but please relax because a former engineering student became a winemaker.

I have no words to describe what I've been through. Of course, there's too much to say, and summer feels like winter. Or maybe there are no seasons at all.

Today I have to write three pages, and it feels like I will be on this subject forever and a day.

I was an engineering school college student, and from year one we were bullied at school. My friend chose to abandon school, and I decided to hold on because the message wasn't clear.

Ten years later, we discover security agents and how they slaughter the population. But maybe living in Europe can expose you to that kind of threat. I do think communists were still alive back then.

Do You Always Feel Like Somebody Naughty Is Watching?

Much has been said about intimate life. It's a part of your bigger life, like financial life, and occupational life. Lately, my catastrophic intimate life spilled over all other areas of my life. And now I have to write on the internet.

I must say I'm a bit confused because I'm also tracking visitors to this blog. But I'm not stunning them and making them feel like vegetables. At least, I hope I don't.

My goal with this blog is to have an occupation because I'm not able to do scientific stuff anymore. Lately, I thought daily life with cancer was similar to watching a young girl cry her late father, who died in strange circumstances.

Yes, daily life with cancer is like going to a funeral every day. And it's an exhausting experience to dress in black every day.

When A Victim Of Bullying Do You Need To Stay Sober?

My former friend left school in the first year. And now he's a winemaker instead of being an engineer. Thanks to secret operations by who knows who.

Don't get me wrong: I think you have the right to change your mind. But cynicism and dehumanization have taken the power back. Numbers tell a side of the story, and it's easy to forget your humanity. But there's a feeling I just can't shake.

People talking but they just don't know what's in my heart and why I love visitors of this blog so. Come on, sugar, let the good times roll. Suddenly, there's a massive attack in a public venue in France.

You know I'm tired of dirty love. At the moment, I'm in a coma, and I'm not even thinking of spending time in a room with climatization, even though it's 30 degrees outside.

Did You Have To Kill Somebody Awkwardly?

I must confess I'm trying to kill someone. And it seems we have a wonderful imagination in that case. I decided to look like my stupid aggressor and be taken for a fool everywhere I go. You need to be yourself because everybody else is already taken.

It's a real pain writing that post and readers of the blog may I have noticed I stopped posting every day. Maybe it's the corona crisis that will do me in. But what about my foolishness?

They say a fool makes bad judgments. Was I right or was I wrong fighting for my country and the leaders of the free world. I love America and England, and I'm using their language today to communicate with you. But I do wonder who will be there for me today.

How Come Massive Loneliness Won't Leave You Alone?

To conclude, recently someone told me I had big trouble with my mind. I have to ride that lonesome train because my heart is heavy and always changing. The time to dream is so short it seems like it's the inverse of the lifespan of our universe.

Maybe our universe exists because we needed to dream a little. We need to dream, but this is only allowed if you manage to close your eyes a little. Then you will understand a complex life much better.

They say the best things in life are the simple things. But does it make sense to simplify all the time? I guess our savior will be to be extremely elaborate and polyvalent.

Still, loneliness is everywhere: don't look for happiness because you will never find it. You won't get any satisfaction, but if you do please cherish the moment.

Former engineering students become winemakers and bloggers. Thank you, crazy environment.

[Hook:]
Red, red wine goes to my head
Makes me forget that I
Still need her so
Red, red wine
It's up to you
All I can do, I've done
Memories won't go
Memories won't go
Red, red wine goes to my head
Makes me forget that I
Still need her so
Red, red wine
It's up to you
All I can do, I've done
Memories won't go
Memories won't go

[Bridge]
I just thought, that with time
Thoughts of you would leave my head
I was wrong, now I find
Just one thing makes me forget

[Hook:]
Red, red wine
Stay close to me
Don't let me be in love
It's tearing apart
My blue, blue heart

[Bridge]
I just thought, that with time
Thoughts of you would leave my head
I was wrong, now I find
Just one thing makes me forget

[Hook:]
Red, red wine
Stay close to me
Don't let me be in love
It's tearing apart
My blue, blue heart

[Astro:]
Red red wine, you make me feel so fine
You keep me rockin' all of the time
Red red wine, you make me feel so grand
I feel a million dollar when you're just in my hand

Red red wine, you make me feel so sad
Any time I see you go, it make me feel bad
Red red wine, you make me feel so fine
Monkey pack him Rizla pon the sweet Dep line

(Red red wine)
Red red wine, you give me whole heap of zing
Whole heap of zing, you make me do my own thing
(It's up to you)
Red red wine, you really know how fi love
Your kind of lovin' like a blessing from above

Red red wine, I loved you right from the start
Right from the start with all of my heart
Red red wine in an eighties style
Red red wine in a modern beat style, yeah

(I'd have sworn)
Give me a little time, help me clear up my mind
(That with time)
Give me a little time, help me clear up my mind
(Thoughts of you would leave my head)
Give me red wine, the kind make me feel fine
You make me feel fine all of the time

Red red wine, you make me feel so fine
Monkey pack him Rizla pon the sweet Dep line
The line broke, the monkey get choked
Burn bad ganja pon his little rowing boat

(Red red wine)
Red red wine, I'm gonna hold on to you
Hold on to you cause I know your love true
(Stay close to me)
Red red wine, I'm gonna love you till I die
Love you till I die, and that's no lie

(Don't let me be alone)
Red red wine, can't get you off my mind
Wherever you may be, I'll surely find
(It's tearin' apart)
I'll surely find, make no fuss
(My blue, blue heart)
Just stick with us

(I'd have sworn)
Give me a little time, help me clear up my mind
(That with time)
Give me a little time, help me clear up my mind
(Thoughts of you would leave my head)
Give me red wine, the kind make me feel fine
You make me feel fine all of the time

Red red wine, you make me feel so fine
Monkey pack him Rizla pon the sweet Dep line
The line broke, the monkey get choked
Burn bad ganja pon his little rowing boat

(Red red wine)
Red red wine, you really know how fi love
Your kind of lovin' like a blessing from above
(Stay close to me)
Red red wine, I loved you right from the start
Right from the start with all of my heart

(Don't let me be alone)
Red red wine, you give me whole heap of zing
Whole heap of zing, you make me do my own thing
Red red wine in an eighties style
Red red wine in a modern beat style, yeah

Red red wine, you make me feel so fine
You keep me rockin' all of the time
(Red red wine)
Red red wine, you make me feel so grand
I feel a million dollar when you're just in my hand
(Stay close to me)

Red red wine, you make me feel so sad
Any time I see you go, it make me feel bad
(Don't let me be alone)
Red red wine, you make me feel so fine
Monkey pack him Rizla pon the sweet Dep line

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Nicolas Sursock

Nicolas Sursock is a full-time musician. His work now focuses on blogging and digesting 10,000 songs of jazz, blues, soul, rock, funk and electronic. He plays the guitar if he's not blogging.

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