Why take another shot of courage and tequila

Oct 12, 2017

Take another shot of courage, wonder why the right words never come. Make sure to find the right words. I was born in Beirut, Lebanon in 1980, during the civil war. My parents moved to Paris, France in 1983 and I stayed in Paris, until 2017.

Wanted a basic income, never bargained for that 

I have been tortured and persecuted for more than 20 years, because they followed us in Paris: the Syrian regime wanted to make sure that Lebanon remained under its control. As an oriental Christian, I must say sometimes I wonder how my life would have been without this crime against humanity (inhumane acts, like listening to “Toxic” from Britney Spears).

As you will see, many musicians experienced trips (psychedelic experience) and might be a solution to this blues. From the bottom of my heart, I hope you will enjoy reading my blog and listening to the songs I share. Right now, we need this, driving through the hard times and no line on the horizon except a wild imagination.

Soul sacrifice, don’t try this at home 

“Dazed and Confused” (1967) was inspired by someone named Jake Holmes who opened for Jimmy Page when he was with the Yardbirds. Holmes’ version is about an acid trip (LSD), but contains many of the same elements that made their way into the Led Zeppelin version: walking bass line, paranoid lyrics and an overall spooky sound.

Led Zeppelin’s version was not credited to Jake Holmes, as Page felt that he changed enough of the melody and added enough new lyrics to escape a plagiarism lawsuit. In June 2010, Holmes filed a lawsuit, alleging copyright infringement and naming Page as a co-defendant. The suit was “dismissed with prejudice” on January 17, 2012, after an undisclosed settlement between Page and Holmes was reached out of court in the fall of 2011.

“Let’s make a clean slate of the past” (Eugene Pottier). Williams’ version is a little more soul but you can feel the spirit is here with the walking bass line. By the way, I think it’s one of the most overused chord progression that I’ve heard lately: simple and effective.

If you like walking bass line, you should listen to “Hey Joe” from Jimi Hendrix, another beautiful example of chromaticism in music. In a nutshell, I found Hannah Williams’ version very good, a modern cover with brass section, that helps me remember that a lot of stuff is going on at the moment on the musical scene.

Never let your feelings show! 

When you talk about love, you’re talking about something so vague that, some people have mentioned falling in love with love. Other people have said that it felt like rain. And blaming women (or men if you’re a woman like Hannah Williams) is a misunderstanding of the fundamentals of love (according to me): intelligence.

Love is blindness but marriage restores sight (Groucho Marx once said that “marriage is the chief cause of divorce”). I’m going to downgrade my hate of the opposite sex and maybe yours.

At the moment, I’m trying to quit smoking but it reminds me of a chemotherapy I did for a dignity disease that a lot of people had, the one and only: acne vulgaris at age 17 (thanks for the weapon of choice, more on that later).

Made a devil out of me… 

To be honest, I feel like sleeping all day long and I’m making a conscious effort to write that blog. I decided to write about what I know, instead of making up stuff. Of course, I hope none of you will be shocked but it’s much more easier for me to be honest.

I had a girlfriend that I liked so much that I’ve spent the past 3 years trying to figure out what went wrong between her and me. And I found out. The problem was the curvature of spacetime.

Anyway, if I’m talking about sleeping, it’s because hypnoses is associated with sleep: it seems there is an induction and then a deepening for it to work (in medicine, they list some pills as “sedative/hypnotic”). For example, you’re reading my first post, and then you will read my next posts.

Two riders were approaching with the wind

Must be some kind a way out of here, said the dreamer to the lucid. War is coming with all its glory! Except if we can master that oral fixation that Shakira documented so well. I’m a hypocrite, and I know it; maybe it’s just I’m trying to be polite. But, I will draw a line for you and for me: hygiene must be constant.

When I think of Syria and Iraq, I get a rush of blood to the head: was it a trap? With Syria, there is no problem: tyranny and despotism is something so stupid that I feel compelled today to write everyday. But what about Iraq? Saddam was laughing after 9/11 but is it a “casus belli”? Yes it is, because the least you could do is sympathise. Being honest is important because normally it strengthens.

How come “Honesty” from Billy Joel was #1 in France? Is it a sign of good health? The truth is that we live in a democratic country but, in practice, people behave like dictators. I was a victim of a narcissistic perversion and it went from bad to worse. The code is very simple: something happened on the way to heaven and it is not really sustainable in the long run!

Under 18, you won’t be doing any time

Now I’m 17 and I’m in love. I can tell because I didn’t move from that environment a bit. I’m the guardian of the 16th district of Paris. But if I’m under 18, I shouldn’t be doing any time, right? How come I feel so tired?

That’s because I’m under 5 at the moment and my immune system is not mature enough. I go driving on a regular basis though and I hope security doesn’t mind. As if we were in Lebanon in the 1980s, I stopped fastening my seat belt. Sadly, there are no Renault Fuego to rent to simulate it completely.

My heart is as clear as an Indian summer in New York. I have to kill Bill, and break down the clot. At first, I was afraid and petrified; but then I spent so many days just thinking that the main subject in that place is “how am I going to get down”?

Whirlpool production is guaranteed: hurricane Maria is nothing compared to the windmills of my mind at the moment. This is really spectacular: once I received anonymous letters, creating a climate of suspicion and I’m unable to move from that moment! I’m not faking this: the basis of seduction is suspicion. Don’t tell that to a security officer or a judge looking for an affair.

Eyes on the road and hands upon the wheel 

Please, do make an angel out of me with your comments. It is improbable that I heal before 2020. Basic jealousy (sadness, anger, frustration and disgust) should motivate me to work harder though.

Jealousy is witnessed in young children. But, with age, it’s becoming a bit more complex: if you want to simplify, go for the heart. How come everyday a person comes back from work and his/her lover push him/her away?

My experience is that daily life can be really boring, and I’ve read that Chinese culture has emphasised “daily magic”. At the moment, the magic is still there but I still want to walk away without a word.

In another song, I remember that verse: “each night I hurry to, a love that’s faithful I know”. To be quite honest, I’ve surprised myself falling into the trap of on-again, off-again relationships. Something simple is the key.

And that’s what happened: several months ago, I discovered the code that was supposed to free me (whoever told me that is my enemy, since then I feel disenchanted). Our first enemy is ourselves (at least, that’s what they say in tennis: first, you have to pass the ball above the net).

I read that, when they are fit (and handsome), tennis players find the ball smaller and the net lower. This reminds me of The Doors, a band named after the famous book by Aldous Huxley, The Doors of Perception (1954). The brain is in charge of perception and the heart deals with motivation.

I discovered that “Dazed and Confused” is a 1993 American coming-of-age comedy film, featuring a large ensemble cast of actors who would later become stars, including Matthew McConaughey, Ben Affleck and Milla Jovovich. The plot follows various groups of Texas teenagers during the last day of school in 1976. In 2002, Quentin Tarantino listed it as the 10th best film of all time.

Fool if you think it’s over, ‘coz you said bye 

I hope you liked this song. It is always a good sign that people cover songs that were released a long time ago, because technology has evolved, and when a song stands the test of time, rest assured that it is worth listening to. Or making a post about it.

Time can be an enemy or an ally. But, when it comes to crime against humanity, make sure that time is on your side: as if you had a party hangover.

At the moment, I’m working on something a bit vague, I can’t really explain, you would not understand. Is impunity the root of injustice? The question is open: I pride myself in my ability to doubt (it seems obsessive-compulsive disorder is a doubting disease).

Do you have any doubts yourself about something? Like global warming? Or gluten allergies (Novak Djokovic says he feels a lot more energy since he started a gluten-free diet). I guess he means: careful what you listen to or what you read (food for thought).


If you liked that post or more generally my blog, don’t forget to go to my about page for details on “like, share, comment and donate”. In other words, this sounds serious and I might give up before being seriously injured by sailing into the mystic.

Been dazed and confused for so long it’s not true.
Wanted a woman, never bargained for you.
Lots of people talkin’, few of them know
Soul of a woman was created below, yeah.

You hurt and abuse tellin’ all of your lies.
Run ’round sweet baby, Lord how they hypnotize.
Sweet little baby, I don’t know where you’ve been.
Gonna love you baby, here I come again.

Ev’ry day I work so hard bringin’ home my hard-earned pay.
Try to love you baby, but you push me away.
Don’t know where you’re goin’, don’t know where you’ve been;
Sweet little baby, I want you again.

Been dazed and confused for so long, it’s not true,
Wanted a woman never bargained for you.
Take it easy baby, let them say what they will.
(Will your) tongue wag so much when I send you the bill?


Nicolas Sursock

Nicolas is a musician. His work now focuses on digesting 10000 songs of jazz, blues, soul, rock, funk and electronic. He plays the guitar if he's not blogging!